2 months

Hudson is 2 months old today!! (Depending on how you look at it. He's technically 8 weeks). This time has gone by so fast! Hudson is getting so big. He just smiled at me for the first time the Sunday before last, but only did it a few more times until yesterday. He has been smiling up a storm the last few days!! (In between cries). Here is a picture I captured tonight of my two favorite guys.

There aren't any other huge milestones to report just yet. He has his 2 month check up on Tuesday and he is getting his shots...I'm so not looking forward to that. His last vaccine was terrible! The needle looked long enough to go through his leg. Hopefully it will be better this time! He is holding his head up well, and enjoying tummy time more. We are really getting excited for Christmas! It will certainly be different this year. Even though he won't know what we got him, it will still be fun to get him some things and start our family traditions! (Even if we aren't sure what those are yet.) I can't believe how quickly the time has gone...I just wish I could record every minute of our day so I could watch them when he gets older. Well, maybe not every minute. But, most of them anyway :) Here are his weekly photos from the last month:

The photo's are getting easier since he doesn't scream as soon as I put him down now. Excited for what next month will bring!!

Hudson's First Halloween

Hudson's first Halloween was a sucsess!! He was an adorable monster, and his costume fit him perfectly even though I was affraid it would be too big. We went trick-or-treating at my moms house, then to Danny's sisters house where he got his picture taken with his favorite Uncle Mike (also dressed in costume for his favorite holiday). I thought he would hate his costume but he loved it so much he slept for hours when we got home in it. I hate to get rid of it...it's sooo cute. If I had the room I most definately would become a hoarder of all his baby things. We put all his newborn clothes away about a week ago which was devistating...but, not he get's to wear his bigger clothes so I guess that's a fun trade off.

One Month!

I can't believe it's been over a month now since Hudson was born. Time has gone so fast even though I try to savor every minute of it. The sleepless nights haven't been as bad as I anticipated, even though we have had a few really difficult nights and it is hard to get anything done because he wants to be held all the time. In the last week or so he has really started opening his eyes and looking around, and reacting more to me when I talk to him. Danny has been back to work for almost a week now, and it has been more difficult without his help but we are managing! I think I miss his company more than his help, but he has really been such a huge help. I can't believe how much he has helped out actually. He has really been great!

Every week I've been taking a picture of Hudson on a new fabric (an idea I totally stole from Young House Love). He typically HATES it, and screams through the whole thing when I lay him down on the ground, but this last week I got so many cute pictures of him I had a hard time choosing which one to use for my weekly picture! Here's the weekly pictures so far:

Pretty cute, huh? Here's the outtakes from week 4:

Hopefully they stay this cute! I'm pretty stocked up on fabric and looking forward to his Halloween week! (Next week). Now, while he's still sleeping I'm going to try to get a quick shower in before our day starts.

Hudson's Birth Story

He's here!! I can't believe he is already 10 days old...every day that goes by I think to myself that this is the last day he will be 10 days old...or 9 days old, or 8 days old...I'm trying to enjoy and take in every second of every day. When he is up in the middle of the night screaming I try to remind myself that I don't want to wish this time away, because very soon he won't be so little that he needs me in the middle of the night anymore. I still get teary eyed when I think about him growing up, but hopefully that will go away with the rest of my hormones! :)

I need to write about his birth before I forget it, and it seems like an easier way to tell everyone about what happened than one at a time. The Tuesday before he was born, I went in for a routine appointment at my doctor's office, for a non-stress test and growth scan to make sure he wasn't getting too big. I passed my NST, then did the growth ultrasound, and then waited for the doctor to come in to see me. My regular doctor was out of town until Sunday, and we had planned on inducing on Saturday night so she could deliver me. I was seeing one of her partners while she was gone, and after waiting for 45 minutes for her to see me I was convinced she forgot about me. Finally she came into the room and apologized for taking so long, but said she was talking with her other partner and the hospital about my ultrasound, and because my fluid levels were so low on the ultrasound, she thought it would be a good idea to induce me that night. We had to get to the hospital at 4:30, so when I got home I had about 3 hours to get there...I had no idea what to do for 3 hours so I mopped the floor, then Danny and I went to get lunch. It was so strange to know we were about to have a baby. We got to the hospital, and the doctor (another one from my practice) came in to give me a foley bulb-which goes into my cervix to soften it and get me to dilate. When he tried to put it in I felt a gush of liquid (along with a horrible pain) and thought he broke my water. He had a panicked look on his face, and the nurses ran to grab towels. He lifted his hands up and I saw they were covered in blood. Then they took the end of the bed off and I saw it was covered in blood. The doctor said this had never happened before and he didn't feel comfortable going ahead with the procedure. I obviously didn't either. Luckily Danny had ran to get a drink right before the doctor came in and didn't see what happened-one of the nurses stopped him in the hallway to keep him from coming back in. (For anyone who doesn't know him-he has a VERY low tolerance for blood, and passed out at my first ultrasound). The doctor said we had the option of a c-section that night, or we could wait until the following night and try a different induction method. I didn't know what to choose...I really wanted to go ahead right then and get the c-section (the thought of having my baby 2 hours from then was very tempting...along with skipping the entire labor process) but the nurses told me when we were one on one that I should wait and try to be induced so I could deliver vaginally. Also, I had heard so many terrible things about c-sections so was afraid of the recovery. So we decided to give it another night and try something else the next day. The next morning the other doctor from the practice came in, and gave me cervadil-another drug to "ripen" my cervix. She inserted it in my cervix, and it hurt really badly going in but then I couldn't feel it. We left that in 12 hours, and she checked me again. Nothing had happened so she inserted another cervadil for 12 hours, after that still nothing, and they put something else in (I can't remember the name of that) and in the morning still nothing. The first doctor called my cervix "unfavorable" and the second called it "a steel trap". Well after going through this for 45 hours, we decided that c-section was the way to go. I had had horrible contractions all night and could not handle anymore when nothing was happening. We scheduled the C-section for 1:30 on Thursday, and they came to take me back to give me a spinal block a few minutes before. Danny stayed in the room and got ready...

We were pretty worried about if Danny could handle being in the room with me with as queasy  as he gets, but he was a trooper and wanted to be there. They gave me my spinal block, (not as bad as I expected) and soon I couldn't feel my legs. Then Danny came in, and sat with me and held my hand, and after a few minutes, he asked if he could lower his stool because he was seeing too much (they had a curtain set up so we couldn't see anything just like on TV). It felt like they were lightly rubbing my stomach, and a few minutes later the doctor told Danny to get his camera ready, and we heard the sweetest little peep we've ever heard.

They asked Danny if he wanted to hold him after they wiped him off and I looked at him and asked if he had ever held a baby before-to which he replied no :). He still did a great job!

He came out with his hands clasped like he was praying. So cute!! And, Danny didn't pass out even though he said he saw some guts!! They put me back together and brought us back to our room, and Danny and I got a few minutes alone with Hudson before all of our friends and family came in to see him. We stayed in the hospital for 3 more nights, and got zero sleep. Hudson was awake all night and we had visitors all day every day so we had no chance to nap. We were so excited though we didn't care. And I couldn't sleep through the night anyway when he was sleeping because I couldn't stop staring at him.

The newness still hasn't worn off...I still hate to sleep because he is wide awake at night and I don't want to miss anything. I love him more than I ever thought I could, as sappy as that sounds. Danny has been such a huge help, I am so excited he is still off for 2 more weeks with us! Due to my lack of sleep I'm sure I'm forgetting some details, but that is the gist of our hospital stay! The c-section was not nearly as bad as I had expected-I've been in a little pain but have stayed on my pain pills until recently. I can't compare it to a vaginal birth since I have never had one, but I would have no problem choosing this again!  Here are some more pictures of our cute boy:

37 Weeks!!

I can't believe I'm full term today. I had a doctor's appointment yesterday, and she set my induction date to the 24th! I was really hoping to have him before that, but my doctor is going to be out of town the week she was hoping to induce me. Since my sugar levels have been good she doesn't want to induce me any earlier, and that is fine I guess. But I will go in on Saturday night, and hopefully have him sometime the next day. I would rather just go into labor on my own sometime soon! Like, now.

Two of my good friends have been pregnant with me through this-one had her baby yesterday morning, and the other is in labor as we speak! I'm getting jealous now to be left behind. But if Hudson isn't ready yet, I guess that's okay :)

I am getting less nervous and more excited, especially after seeing my friends baby yesterday. He is SO cute! I can't wait to hold my own little boy soon.

I don't feel like I am that big until I get a look at myself from  the side. WHOA.

The doctor said his head is down really far-and I had guessed that. Things are starting to get a little uncomfortable but not unbareble. This has been a lot easier for me than I thought it would be, other than all the extra things I have to do because of gestational diabetes. Hopefully the delivery will go just as easily!! I am starting to get a little sad about not being pregnant anymore, I love feeling him moving around in there. But it will be just as fun I'm sure to hold him when he gets out! Hopefully soon!

Hudson's 3d Ultrasound Pictures

I can't forget to post these! He is just too cute. We went in almost a month ago to have this done...I'm having another ultrasound Thursday to check growth but it will be a regular one. It will still be fun to see how much he has grown since then! The Doctor says she will induce me at 39 weeks if my sugar is being controlled, and 38 weeks if it isn't being controlled. So...either 4 or 5 more weeks! So soon!! Here is my handsome man:

The ultrasound tech was poking him a lot to get him to move his hands..I don't think he was very happy about it!

How cute are his feet?

32 Weeks.

It is hard to believe I'm already in the 30s. I have about 7 weeks left if Hudson stays where he is until his due date, but he will more than likely be early because of my gestational diabetes. I'm hoping like 3 weeks early. At least part of me is, and the other part is terrified. I felt not an ounce of apprehension or nervousness until the last few weeks. Danny had been asking me several times a day if I was nervous, and I would reply "No...are YOU?" Yes, was his answer. Now, he's not nervous at all and just ready for the baby to get here. Now I am realizing that in a few short weeks I will be DELIVERING A BABY and I am scared. I'm scared of actually delivering him, and I'm so scared of right after. Not that I'm scared of the night feedings and everything that goes along with that-I'm scared something will happen to him. I talked to an old friend on the phone tonight who lost her baby at 3 months to SIDS, and it really puts it all in perspective for me. I am going to try to enjoy even the toughest moments as much as possible because I know there are so many people out there longing for those exact moments. I just want him to get here healthy, and stay that way. Another part of me feels a little sad that everything will be changing for forever. We won't be able to run to the movies on a whim like we do now, and lay around in bed all day long if we feel like it. But then I think about Halloween coming up, and Christmas, and get so excited to celebrate those things with a little baby that is half me and half Danny. I feel so lucky to be starting a family with him, he will be such a great father. This pregnancy has just gone SO fast I don't know if I'm fully prepared yet. But I guess no one is until it happens.

This is as close as it is going to get for maternity pictures for me. I did want at least one picture to remember my baby bump by, and I thought since I actually fixed my hair, put on makeup, and was wearing something other than leggings I would take a picture of Hudson and me at 32 weeks (and a few days).  I can't wait to hold him!